The juggling can stop any time... Seriously, please, stability would be welcomed... I feel like I've got stuff flying at me from all directions with school, work, and a life, and all of the subsets of each of those headings. The scary thing is that everything seems to be in constant flux. There's not really an anchor I can hold onto yet. School is a constant question. Work is its own unusual universe. The friends I'm making here, though great, still aren't quite a support structure. I can't really say how I feel about my lovelife from one day to the next. I know I've probably said this before, but even though I'm enjoying myself, this is really wearing me out. Yes, I love being busy, and I'm glad that I'm working toward goals and scenarios that have always held such high importance for me, but if the world could stop whirling around me long enough to just breath I would greatly appreciate it.

It's times like this I begin to wish that I weren't so damned independent. I think it might have been nice to find contentment living near home, finding some random job, and just kind of existing. But no, I had to have something more interesting. It's also right about now that I begin to contemplate how my life would have been pre-women's movement. It's tempting to think about a world where you find a husband to take care of you and make the decisions, but I know that wouldn't really work out in the long run. Plus, being born to the lower middle class I probably wouldn't have had that white picket fence. I guess the moral of the story is that no one gets to just give up. You have to keep working and living, and taking what life throws at you, even if it comes in the form of ego-killing classes, and a confidence-crushing personal life.