As the possibility of liberation grows more and more likely, I find myself with less patience for the current state of affairs. What I need is some fabulous, high paying job that will only need me for a couple of months. It seems unlikely that such a position will materialize, but I wanted to put the seed out there in the universe.

As much as I desperately need to run far far away from my current job, and actually try to meet new people and have a little fun, it's hard to reconcile that with my need to live within a few feet of Kelly. Even though I have other ties, friends and family I love dearly, I can't wait to get away from the situations building with all of them, with the exception of Kelly. I just value my independence too much to picture decades around the same people, wonderful as they may be. Perhaps because she's my tie to the fun and happy Meg I can't associate her with the current state of mundane nothingness. Either way, don't be surprised if you see on the news in August that a UCLA grad student has vanished. She's likely packed away in my Uhaul, being dragged to whatever corner of the world I choose to inhabit next.

Sidebar: This feels a lot like high school, where I wished that I could somehow sleep through the entirety of my senior year and wake up in college rather than actually having to wait through the pointless bullshit of the intervening months. I would like to go to sleep tonight and wake up in August, enrolled in grad school, and far away from here.