Ugh. I was so excited about this party until last night. Now it looks like although it was Lara's idea, I've been the only one to put in time, effort, or money, and everyone I invited is canceling. So I'm getting negative return on my investment because I'm in a shitty mood to boot. I'm sure it's just passing, but a tiny bit of bitterness has crept in. Of course, most disappointing is Frank. Aside from wanting to go dancing and having him around my friends, I just wanted to see him. Now he has to work all weekend. I know that I can't argue with work, but it would be really nice to date a guy where I'm a priority. Dave had that one down, but he was also clingy and controlling. There's got to be a balance to be found somewhere. Naturally, this all goes to nothing as long as Frank and I are just dating and not getting more serious. However, that's not really a topic worth getting into at the moment.

I have some curry to make and wine to drink. If tonight's going to be worthwhile, I need to get into a more festive mood.