1. I hate Comcast. I just lost a post when my internet went out.
2. No, I didn't pass the FSOE.
3. My friends here are beginning to annoy me, because if I don't plan a gathering, I never see them.
4. I'm reminded that February's never been a good month for me. As a matter of fact, I've had three relationships end in February (and the beginning of the end for a fourth), my grandmother died Feb 4th, and my mom's stroke was Feb 27th. Spring also tends to be more drama for me, though I guess it's still winter around these parts.

It's probably just PMS, but I've been a bit homesick today. Kelly and Bryce are hanging out tonight and I'm jealous because I miss both of them. I can't wait for May. Between the wedding, the friends, and the California it should be amazing. In the meantime the big thing I have to look forward to is my trip to Memphis in a couple of weeks. It'll be good to see Denise.

I seem to have lost focus and drive in my life. I have no idea anymore what it's going to take to make me happy. I'm just afraid that I'll end up leading a boring mediocre existence and fading into the background. I don't want to wake up in my mid-forties and find that I've wasted two decades. I feel so lost.