I have been inexplicably sad lately. Trying to figure out why this is, I've eliminated school, work, family, boy, etc. Everything's actually pretty normal at the moment. It's funny, I'm not even depressed or moody in the normal way. If it were that I could just berate myself for being dramatic and self-indulgent and then cheer up. As it is I'm just down. I feel empty and oddly without hope. It's almost a resignation to unhappiness. I want to cry, but can't work up that kind of dramatics.

The upside to this is that I've been getting a lot of reading done, and have been working out. The downside is that I can't seem to figure out whether I'm actually getting sick, or if the emotional problems are causing my stomach and sleeping problems. All I really want at the moment is to cuddle up with some one. Unfortunately, that some one is very far away.