The summer in Jersey is coming to an end, and the stress is mounting. At the moment I'm relaxing and watching to Olympics. It's a welcome break from the past several days. The primary causes of stress have been my movers and my financial aid. I'm hoping that both will soon be squared away. My movers are ridiculous, and I'm beginning to doubt that I will ever see my furniture again. I'll be heading down to DC tomorrow to try to straiten everything out and meet my new roommies.

In other news, it looks like Bryce has found a job in Baghdad. That'll be odd and interesting to see if he actually goes. Otherwise I think he's looking in Washington. I would love to have him around. I'm really missing having my friends near me. Somehow the phone is just not satisfying. I think that with all of the other stress and anxiety at the moment is combining with the fact that I don't have people my age to just hang with to make me incredibly tense. My back is so tight I think it might start spasming. I really need to stop being such a basket case.

It seems that even though I feel like much has been going on, especially emotionally, I have very little to say. I'm just stressed and anxious, and not feeling terribly good about myself. School has got me scared, and I'm really afraid that I won't keep up on work when I'm away from the office. Then there's the pressure of the people who count on me. I just have so much fear of the future. My oral assessment for the Foreign Service in in February, and I'm already setting myself up for disappointment. That's right, five months of chewing myself up over not being good enough. I'm going to give myself ulcers before I'm thirty.

For now the things I'm looking forward to are as follows: I'm going home in September. Kelly's coming to visit in October. Bryce will likely be in DC soon. Provided that classes, work and roommates are all ok, I think that those three things can keep me going through Christmas. Hopefully, as I establish my life out here there will be more to look forward to. We'll have to see how things develop.