Is it possible to be in a good mood and depressed at the same time? Is it that on one level I have hope for the future, and on another I see the futility of it in the face of my own mediocrity, but I can't seem to figure out which one is real? Or possibly it's that I'm more comfortable with loneliness than I am with being loved so feeling emotionally isolated is like an old friend come to visit. Maybe I'm just more numb than anything else.

More than anything else it reminds me of bright, sunny, frigid day.