I was out at TNO tonight, having a low-key fun time, when I got inexplicably sad. It started out as just being disinterested and waiting for some friends to show up so that I could put in some time with them and then go home, but it turned into the kind of sadness I've reference earlier in this blog, where I don't want to cry or go into any drama, drink or hide under a rock. I just wanted to fade away and cease to be. I think that the larger part of the problem is loneliness, but that's not something I'm about to give in to. Instead I just came home, and am headed to bed at a reasonable hour. My hope is that I'll feel better in the morning, or at least in time for tomorrow night's festivities.