I wanted something so badly that I've uprooted my life, moved across country away from everyone and everything I know and love, and have gone into massive debt. Now I wonder, was it all a mistake? Am I in over my head and about fail miserably at the one thing I've always wanted? Am I just not good enough to make this happen? Is there something else I'm supposed to be doing with my life? What will I do if I fall on my face and find out that I'm just not cut out for this, and that the plan I've made for my life just isn't going to work?